March 22, 2017

Don’t be a Jerry Maguire: You’re Whole Already

Did You Get the Perfect Relationship? Have you ever (however fleetingly) thought what life would have been like if you’d been with someone else instead of the one you’re with? For some this is a constant question, always wondering what it would be like to “trade up”. Still others might view relationships like a perpetual Easter egg hunt; always on the look-out for the next one. How about good old Jerry, his epic desperately uttered lines of “you complete me” where one half is always limping along looking for the other […]
April 13, 2017
Children playing hide and seek in a park in the fall.

Discovering Hidden Parts of Self Through Awareness

Hide and Seek is Only Fun When Someone Finds You We all have our favourite emotional hiding spots. The “best” ones are the activities, vices or jobs that make us forget we’re hiding in the first place. In the past I’ve sometimes referred to myself as, Hiding in Plain View, and I was. For years I was kind of like the “lights are on but no one’s home”, person but dragging myself from place to place was not the highest commitment I could have made. At first I didn’t know […]
April 13, 2017

Meditation: Awareness is Not for the Ambitious (it’s for us lazy folk)

Occasionally my BFF and I discuss “peoples” work ethic vs lazy tendencies. Her view is that most of us are lazy. Occasionally concerned she might be referring to me I usually defend the notion. It should be noted she is dedicated and hard-working and also noted, generally speaking, I am not. In cultivating awareness working does not work but laziness does. Working at expanding awareness is like working at getting a good dream, you can’t think about it or plan on it. Those things don’t work in fact it seems […]
April 13, 2017
A black silhouette of a man with a light bulb in his head.

Intuition: Psychic Abilities or (plain old) Awareness?

When someone suggests we’re intuitive, or “have intuition” it’s flattering to think we might have special mind powers–for the moment anyway. But really, all we’re doing in that one flattered moment is comparing our intellect with our perception of what we think might be magical thinking (with maybe some insightful luck thrown in). Intuition, which is really just a slightly expanded sense of awareness, is perfectly natural and every single living thing has “it”.  The real myth is thinking intuition is a part of the intellect at all. Intuition is […]
January 1, 2018
Is the practise of gratitude good for you?

The Meaning of Gratitude

  The Meaning of Gratitude I rarely use words like grateful or gratitude. When it comes to gratitude I choose my verbal utterances carefully, and (99% of the time) I use the word appreciation instead. Declining the use of the word gratitude was not based on an inability to feel appreciation; it was based on noticing what appeared to be an energetic drain when I did. Feeling or expressing gratitude drains you? Hmmm. Casually mentioning this, sometime later while socializing, drew suspicion. I imaged I appeared (at best) arrogant; maybe […]
May 2, 2018
Tarot cards

Ouija, Tarot, and Pendulums are Focusing Tools (and nothing to be afraid of)

Tools of the Trade Divination tools, like Tarot, are unimportant in and of themselves and are simply “tools of the trade” when used for readings. Tarot, dowsing rods, pendulums, crystals or any other divination tool you can name is the same. Tools are focusing devices and can act as prompts, or visual cues, when stilling your thoughts to access the peaceful knowing that comes from awareness. Other than that, divination tools are no different than any other object used for focusing an intention before letting the mind still. When I […]
May 16, 2018
Be Yourself

You Don’t Need a Guru: Follow Yourself Instead

The job of being you isn’t to: regurgitate someone else’s intelligence copy someone else’s work translate or “massage” (other’s) copy into your own brand When I use the word “intelligence” I mean the deep knowing we all have access to that comes from awareness—the knowing that’s the deep stillness of peace just below the endless babble of our thoughts. Our own intelligence, that comes from us–is to solely for our benefit–so that we’ll awaken to our own promise. There’s nothing wrong with sharing what you know, but don’t “borrow” from […]
May 17, 2018

Part 3: A Haunting of Antique Wounds

“Don’t make it do too much”, whispers something in my head so with a practiced eye I edit the antique documents, jewelry and relics for a work related photo shoot. “Too much” is what I’m all about though–and that’s the problem. The mind stills as my eyes eat the inventory, ostensibly trolling for treasure but this hunger is old and has nothing to do with the job. On the contrary, it’s the very thing that can prohibit a job; and it’s the part of me that haunts. I want it […]
May 17, 2018
A child about to grabbed by ghost hands

Part 1: A Haunting: How to Read Energy Pockets

My kids likes DVD’s that start with the titles  A Haunting, and in this case, Spirits from the Past. There’s a series of them where common religious myths and archetypal themes dominate with angels and demons, portals and spirit animals, red Indians and ancient burial grounds and sometimes, even child-ghosts run amok. Some serious and believable-sounding anchorman does a voice over a reenactment. My daughter likes them and sometimes I’m interested too but mostly these shows are as far away from the truth as you can get. Oh it’s paranormal or […]
May 17, 2018
A red light at an intersection

Part 2: Ottawa Haunts Aren’t Ghosts

Hauntings aren’t ghosts, the paranormal, or supernatural activity. Everything is just energy so what may appear to be “hauntings” are energy pockets (areas of space) we walk into and are able to perceive and, sometimes, translate. Our energy actually aligns with the energy in the pocket. Our energy aligning doesn’t mean anything more than having the ability to consciously perceive the emotional patterns contained within that pocket. There’s no need to be afraid of this. Nothing in present time is happening other than you sensing something. Allow fear to take […]
May 17, 2018
Graphic Art with Awareness as title and all the words that awareness may engender

Use it or Lose it? Misconceptions about Intuition

Ignoring your intuition over time does not cause it to diminish Popular books on intuition, or “how to be psychic” generally see authors alleging that many of us, in childhood, used to be intuitive but that over time we either grew out of it or lost the ability. If that were true, think how much nicer we’d all be if parts of ourselves just vanished from lack of use. Like for instance if my impatience had disappeared from lack of use—that’d be great–but I’m sorry to report, no such luck. So, […]
September 24, 2018
Handmade rag doll

Ottawa Doll Maker

For years I wanted to make rag dolls, out of cotton or linen. Year in, year out, I thought sewing a rag doll to life but felt afraid. What did I know of doll making? Nothing; and why did I want to make dolls? I didn’t know. Finally I couldn’t be disobedient to myself another minute and began to sketch, cut and sew. You know it’s kind of funny because that’s how it was with my daughter too. I felt her around me, at different times, for years, waiting to […]
September 24, 2018

Ottawa Handmade Rag Dolls

Gal Pals: The Rag Dolls made for Comfort and Love The Gal Pal Rag Doll Spokesperson (BluGirl Speaks) My name is Blugirl and I speak for a tribe of rag dolls handmade in Ottawa. Wanda Bowring is the doll maker but I was me long before she laid hands to paper, cloth and scissors shaping the “me” you see today. And yet, I must give her some credit—for she listens you see—and allows that which is life (Gal Pals like me) to come through her; although I am not of […]